“Your problem is how you are going to spend this one and precious life you have been issued. Whether you’re going to spend it trying to look good and creating the illusion that you have power over circumstances, or whether you are going to taste it, enjoy it and find out the truth about who you are.”
There are those days in our years, and moments in our days when our attention is forced from underfoot, and we look out with somewhat startled surprise at the unexpected terrain we are actually crossing.
Such a moment occurred when I was recently offered a new job opportunity. In fact it landed in my in-box on my birthday.
The project is for 6 months. And although it is very much tied up with the health system, it is not nursing.
After much deliberation, and discussion with Kelly I have decided to take a leap of faith and see where this leads.
I have been working as an emergency nurse for 23 years now. For the last 2 years I have been acting in the role of Clinical Nurse Consultant.
Recently, that job was advertised and I was unsuccessful in my application for it.
So, for the foreseeable future at least, the doors for moving into any substantial positions of leadership within my department are closed.
This is a situation that I am finding personally and professionally frustrating right now for many reasons that I will not bore you with here.
Don’t get me wrong, working on the floor as a clinical nurse is a privilege that I hope I have acknowledged in my writings on this blog. But I had aspired to more.
So on my 49th birthday, at a time when I was questioning my own leadership capabilities as a nurse and wondering where exactly I was going in my remaining career, this opportunity has arisen.
As far as this blog is concerned, Im hoping that over the next 6 months the release from the stresses and strains of working in the emergency department will give me some more time to develop my writings, both personal and clinical on this site with a renewed vigor (I have big plans).
But I guess as a sort of credibility disclaimer I just wanted you all to know that for the next wee while, although I will continue to write as a nurse I will not be working as one.
I hope you will stick around to watch it all unfold.